Just smile

I really want somebody to make my blog look pretty

I want my blog to reflect me

but just like my life and my style, it doesn't

oh well

went to school today and I only drank water and tea

time for some Castle, BBT and and Heavy <3

"Are you from Ireland? Because you've got my penis Dublin"

HAHAHAHA

have a great night xox

La joie de vivre est dans nous tous et toutes

What a silly mini vacation at le hopital

Some things were good, I thought about alot

in terms of improving my mental health and going to school

but when they offered recovery,

I politely declined, I am not ready, and frankly, don't want to

I now have a work out buddy hopefully

and my house is full of disgusting cookies

oh well,

catching up on blogs now, SO many to read in five days,

but it gives me hope

and reminds me why I'm here

ps- totally snuck my scale onto the unit and am down two pounds, at least it's something

xox

NYC fall 2011

Just went on my old modelling blog to see who's hot

and my old best friend is in SIX shows for New york fashion week

and one eyewear ad

I am happy for her

but I am so upset

because if I wasn't still so fat

and cut up

that would have been me

It's a good thing I'm going to a hospital tomorrow

She will be my motivation

Mini-Vacation Time? Apparently

Day 2 of no binge down

I'm off to the hospital tomorrow for a couple of days

cos my therapist is concerned about my ed,

so I'm doing my hair so I look better than all the other crazies

:P

I have seen the perfect legs on gazellethighs' blog

so I am re-posting them because,

holy crap they are amazing

same weight as yesterday, 99+21.2

Stay strong lovelies!

ps- i'm not getting sent to the ed ward

pps- the ward im in has a treadmill and doesn't monitor food HOORAH

Where'd she go? Here I am

3 day binge free plan with Nikki starts today

day 1 for me- fruit

day 2- veggies

day 3-friuts + veggies

no purging allowed

weight: 99+ 21.2

disgusting

sorry if I scared you Gabby,

promise I'm back for good

Bonsoir

I am a failure

in everything I do

particularly with eating

I can't weigh anymore, the bitch took my scale this afternoon and I have no money for a new one

I can't exercise, my IT band is fucked up bad

I'm a fat disgusting pig

I don't deserve to be on here, to have friends

followers,

this is my last post

I'm off to live my life full of chocolate cake

fatness, unhappiness

and imperfection

Sexy Asian Dance Party.. Whaaaat

I'm back

and peppy

and I like my hair

I'm going to get it trimmed by a pro

and then dye it slightly darker

woot

Purged like a mofo

and have lost 3 pounds in two days

feeling good!

side note- goofed up my IT band (something in my leg apparently)

so cannot walk or work out

but I'm determined to find some kind of situp

that won't make me cry

I photograph like a fat twelve year old