WEEOO

Salut!

I am feeling so productive!

I have painted my nails, watched Criminal Minds, attempted physics, did my server quizzes, have done everything to avoid doing my dissertation and projects, and now I have had espresso and am ready for an all nighter

Got a new phone again, this one better work longer than just a couple hours, silly blackberrys

I went down a pound from yesterday, woohoo (not enough, but at least it is a drop)

Marcus and I are hell bent on fixing us (YAY. I am seriously in love with this guy and am going to try harder to be the best I can be to myself for him and to him)

AH CAFFEINE I LOVE YOU

going camping all weekend, then to Lake Louise for some mad shreddage next weekend

Happy st patty's day tomorrow! I work and then am skipping going out to do schoolwork (yay priorities, Lord give me strength!)

ok, that is it! Back to school work and coffee and stretching and Operation Barbarossa!

xxoxoxooox

TV junkie

Normal thinspo doesn't make me happy anymore
They're never skinny enough
never enough bones
I want bones
I need bones

There was an Intervention episode today (Tiffany) and it struck really close to home, because she has a 10 month old kid who her grandparents are taking care of while she disappears for days on end doing meth. In the end she left rehab early and is back doing drugs. I'm relieved that it ended like that. If she ended up getting better and being a proper mom, I would probably have cried and been filled with anger that she would do that, but not my own mum. Fucking reality tv
The midget on Heavy made it a bit better, he started out fatter around then he was tall (hee hee)
The man and I are fighting because I am gonna go rail some snow tomorrow with the ex bf (whos paying for it all) drama rama who cares gonna snort it all away
I wish I had more money for drugs so i could get skinnier quicker and have fun doing it
oh well, i'll be fat and broke

everybody youtube "christain praises god for tragedy in japan"
she is one of the reasons people hate my God. boo to her

goodnight, this was an ecclectic mix of topics
will post my weight tomorrow gaahh

Women who straddle

I have a thing for tall skinny boys

especially asian (im such a weirdo)

my little brother loves his anime and made me watch all of the Death Note series

(Actually exceeded my expectations)

and then the first movie of two

And L is my hot, hot sex.

I am going to find this lanky asian

and make beautiful, smart, mocha babies with him

mmm Ken'ichi Matsuyama please move to Canada and speak french with me

none of you even want to know my weight

my grandma dissapeared and left me to take care of my little brother yesterday

and I am so angry at her but thanks to chatting about boys with Gabby, I didn't binge/purge all of my feelings

but somehow my weight still sucks,

oh well, fasting time tomorrow till Friday!

next week's Heavy stars a 250 pound midget

(IM EXCITED!)

I miss ms Nikki and am super excited to hear all the deets of her mini vacay

I should be a movie critic, I've watched, no joke, at least 50 hours of movies in 3 weeks

and have done zip homework.

oops, oh well!

ps-everybody check out Mother Mother's video "the stand", love it!

If I had a type then baby it would be you

Salut!

So I fasted (minus a small bowl of tom soup) for 2 days and lost 4 pounds!

now at 99+19.4 slight progress, but progress none the less

but I had copious amounts of spaghetti, a bit of cookie dough and cereal today,

I justified the cereal because I almost fainted before work

but that is no excuse

and the others I just binged

but I'm going to fast again until Monday

I'll eat on the days I work, but not crazy like I did today

and I am going to work out tomorrow morning

I'm having a good day aside from the binge

Went out last night, it wasn't perfect but I had fun and it made me miss my boyfriend,

I'm turning into such a sap, oh well, c'est la vie

Have a great weekend mes ami(e)s!

Quelle belle journée!

Salut mes chouettes!
Aujourd'hui, j'ai appliqué pour l'université!
J'ai hâte a voir si je serai acceptée!

....
I'm feeling very french today because i applied for university en français!
I'm quite excited because it means nobody making me eat and I never have to speak english in real life again!
WOOHOO
Last night I binged, I had some Munchies and some frog candies
but I woke up today half a pound lighter!
99+23.4
disgusting! I've gained 6 pounds in a couple months, this is gross
I am fixing it
looking at thinspo and binge prevention (yay PT)
I also got invited to go out tomorrow night with people at school
I am feeling good!!
Passez une merveilleuse nuit, je m'en vais au gym, puis je vais me bronzer!

Just smile

I really want somebody to make my blog look pretty

I want my blog to reflect me

but just like my life and my style, it doesn't

oh well

went to school today and I only drank water and tea

time for some Castle, BBT and and Heavy <3

"Are you from Ireland? Because you've got my penis Dublin"

HAHAHAHA

have a great night xox

La joie de vivre est dans nous tous et toutes

What a silly mini vacation at le hopital

Some things were good, I thought about alot

in terms of improving my mental health and going to school

but when they offered recovery,

I politely declined, I am not ready, and frankly, don't want to

I now have a work out buddy hopefully

and my house is full of disgusting cookies

oh well,

catching up on blogs now, SO many to read in five days,

but it gives me hope

and reminds me why I'm here

ps- totally snuck my scale onto the unit and am down two pounds, at least it's something

xox