If I were a boy, I'd have no curves and it would be grand

My weekend was up and down

Sometimes I feel like two different people.

One wants to live the 9-5 office dream with a cabin on the lake in summer and yearly family vacations and the two car garage with 2.5 kids and 1.5 dogs and who goes to yoga and runs marathons for seldom known illnesses

The other one wants to travel the world, learn new languages, get dirty, make tents, live off the earth and just BE.

The only thing these two things have in common is how I will look. Anybody else feel torn between two people?

Elections day is tomorrow and I still don't know who to vote for.

I also feel like I don't have enough time for things that I need/want to do, or rather that I don't make enough time. I'm not sure,

I'm excited to weigh tomorrow.

ps- Osama Bin Laden has been killed? That couldn't have waited until after Celebrity Apprentice was finished? Silly news station.

The sun is shining and so shall I

Ladies and gents!

I am down 3 pounds.

.2 from my first weight goal.

I can feel and see my ribs and shoulder bones again

this is putting me in such a good mood for the weekend

even though it is snowing again

and I am in flip flops

but who cares, cos I am happy

lalalala

Have a fabulous weekend!

oh ps- food for thought (ahaha i hate that expression): Has globalization been positive or negative for large countries?Why or why not

pps- I need to remember to vote

Dear PTers

When somebody is bitching about somebody: fat/gross/mean/rude/icky/whatever

do not try to validate the bitchee's actions.

you idiots are the reason we can't vent on PT and why mods have to have sticks up their bums.

calm your whoremoans. Don't be heroic, you end up looking like trolly, bitchy cunts

:)

love CJ

ps- I bet if I post this on PT it gets taken down in a matter of minutes..

can't even keep down a turkey wiener and piece of broccoli anymore

this is getting ridiculous

The only thing that matters is Your love

Today I ate zero things. aside from a quarter of a beet and a chocolate bunny head (which I purged)

I have drank only water and went to a spin class and almost fainted

yay skinny

must lose a minimum of three pounds by thursday so I can wear my parliament skirt to parliament

I went shopping and everything was xs or s, which made me content

also, I am becoming such a sap. Which, if you don't really know me, won't be a big deal, but really, it is. I'm in such a 'i want to be a stay at home mom later and get married and go for family walks and play couples bridge' mindset, which I'm sure Marcus is sick of (not that I say these things, but just the me talking about the future so much ) and I don't blame him.

I better be down at least a pound tomorrow!

ps- I have been reading all your blogs, but I just haven't commented lately, because I am at a loss of words lately. I do still care, and when I get my head out of my bum, I'll start commenting again :)

Dear Lord, have mercy on us

Sorry I have not posted in a while, things have been hectic in my life

ummmmm

I've been thinking a lot

I hate when people get better

I want to be sicker in every sense of the word

I fail at being religious

Why can't I see my collar bones

My teeth are kind of wiggly

Why do I chose food over relationships

I'll never be stick thin in time for school in the fall, let alone summer

My thoughts revolve around food, boyfriend and school, in that order

My grandma wants to start a diet (like 500 cals a day) type thing so I said I would do it with her.

Going to try not purge every day, or only once a day

also going to walk once a day to tanning

also I want to stop therapy

Have a great Easter, God Bless, may his favour and forgiveness rain down upon us all from the heavens for all our sins. Amen.

Some things never change

"omg hiii, lets grab coffee when im in town"

"its been two years since we've talked"

"ohemgee all the more reason!"

ya, when you and all my other "friends" get together in january (and summer. and reading week. and reading week before that. and..) for numerous chill hangout nights to catch up and shit and dont invite me, you REALLY think I want to talk to any of you fucking bitches again? where were you cunts when I was having issues? oh ya "we are trying to enjoy our university experience and you're wrecking it with your drama and issues." but now that I'm going to uni we're suddenly BFF again? ya, I don't fucking think so

lalalalala

in other news

I have nothing new to report. I'm destined to stay fat forever and my face no longer wishes to tan

peace out