I am back.
I don't know why I left.
Self discovery. Self hatred. I'm not sure.
I feel rattled, lost, confused and an emotional train wreck.
I am talking to my boyfriend about everything, I am not sure it is helping
I am taking my medication and I feel like it is just making me emotionally whacked out
I have no idea why I am writing again
I looked at thinspo and my heart almost leapt out of my chest with longing. I don't think that I have ever wanted something like that so much in that kind of way
I don't know what to think. If I hadn't taken my meds recently, maybe I would go puke. maybe I wouldn't. I think I am lost and I don't know where to turn to.
Fuckaduck
