Broth is my best friend

Veggie broth

Beef broth

Chicken broth

I love them all. They are my saviors.

I woke up at the same weight today, but I'm going to stay positive

yesterday i ate oatmeal (110) a chicken breast with spices (110) a bit of salsa (25) for a total of 245, which I am alright with

Today, I have eaten a banana (100) and my uncle is taking me to dinner at my (used to be) favorite italian restaurant. I am only going to have some lobster bisque (a soup type thing, 250 ish cals per cup) but not all of it! and a small slice of bread (if I'm forced) and tea and perhaps a bit of salad.

I got my grad pictures today. My cheeks look so fat and disgusting, my chin looks wide , my hair looks dry, I look oily, I could go on...

I'f I am not two pounds smaller by tomorrow, I will kill something.

I must lose those two pounds before my period comes! (which I think is soon, I'm so bad with figuring it out)

I have a massage today, went to the bank to talk about student loans and visas and tanned

I will NOT wreck this day with food!

going to go back and eat my broth now..mmmm broth.....

Do not read if you're sensitive

I need to get something out

and if you're sensitive about feelings and people

don't read this

I don'T want to cause any hate

or any drama, which is why I shall post here and not on PT

I despise fat people.

I hate seeing them eat, walk, talk, jiggle, everything,

They are fat and it makes me sick

I don'T care if they exersice every day

they are still fat and I cannot be around it

"oh, we need to be mindufl of feelings"

fuck that.

people on pt who are huge and want to lose weight,

go join a fucking gym, get off our site,

I dont think some of you are sick,

if you get offended by our postings

ummm...

its an ED site! as in we hate our bodies and fat

so just because you have more of it that I do,

is no reason to make all of us censor our fucking opinions

the world would be a better place if nobody was fat.

ah,

okay,

sorry about that, just needed to let it out.

There she goes again

Salut mes amours!

Sorry for the disappearing off the face of the earth!

The past week I went snowboarding (SO sore from it) and had such an amazing time

hardly ate while I was there,

on top of the mountain, it was so peaceful and I felt like I could fly, nothing else mattered but the fresh powder...I sound like a space job, but really, it was exactly what I needed

I also suffered a couple day migraine, which means I didn't eat for a couple days,

woke up 3 pounds lighter, which isn't too shabby, going to keep this weight loss rolling, NO EXCUSES, SO sick of being a huge whale.

Also picking out my schedule for uni and it'S creating a bunch of riffs but I won't let it bring me down.

I can feel my hip bones, see my ribs a bit and my collar bones, which is fine, but not good enough at all.

Now that you have all sat on your bums and read this post, drop down and give me 20 situps and 15 jumping jacks! Hah, just kidding (but you should do it anyway)

I'll blog tomorrow too, promise! (going to start posting my intake too, gaah)

Quick check in

Hey everybody, sorry about the drop from the face of the earth, I've been at camp and my computer has been busted

I'm off to Lake Louise in the am, so I'll post when I get back on saturday!

I met a great guy that goes to the uni I got in to and I am going to track him down and be his best friend

Tomorrow +friday= no bingeing. 3 hours of snowboarding=1400 calories burned, times two days =2800 calories burned at least + fasting (with tea and coffee) = skinny CJ, hiding my scale in my bag :)

byee

ps- thanks for the Versatile blogger award, I will post it up when I get back!

WEEOO

Salut!

I am feeling so productive!

I have painted my nails, watched Criminal Minds, attempted physics, did my server quizzes, have done everything to avoid doing my dissertation and projects, and now I have had espresso and am ready for an all nighter

Got a new phone again, this one better work longer than just a couple hours, silly blackberrys

I went down a pound from yesterday, woohoo (not enough, but at least it is a drop)

Marcus and I are hell bent on fixing us (YAY. I am seriously in love with this guy and am going to try harder to be the best I can be to myself for him and to him)

AH CAFFEINE I LOVE YOU

going camping all weekend, then to Lake Louise for some mad shreddage next weekend

Happy st patty's day tomorrow! I work and then am skipping going out to do schoolwork (yay priorities, Lord give me strength!)

ok, that is it! Back to school work and coffee and stretching and Operation Barbarossa!

xxoxoxooox

TV junkie

Normal thinspo doesn't make me happy anymore
They're never skinny enough
never enough bones
I want bones
I need bones

There was an Intervention episode today (Tiffany) and it struck really close to home, because she has a 10 month old kid who her grandparents are taking care of while she disappears for days on end doing meth. In the end she left rehab early and is back doing drugs. I'm relieved that it ended like that. If she ended up getting better and being a proper mom, I would probably have cried and been filled with anger that she would do that, but not my own mum. Fucking reality tv
The midget on Heavy made it a bit better, he started out fatter around then he was tall (hee hee)
The man and I are fighting because I am gonna go rail some snow tomorrow with the ex bf (whos paying for it all) drama rama who cares gonna snort it all away
I wish I had more money for drugs so i could get skinnier quicker and have fun doing it
oh well, i'll be fat and broke

everybody youtube "christain praises god for tragedy in japan"
she is one of the reasons people hate my God. boo to her

goodnight, this was an ecclectic mix of topics
will post my weight tomorrow gaahh

Women who straddle

I have a thing for tall skinny boys

especially asian (im such a weirdo)

my little brother loves his anime and made me watch all of the Death Note series

(Actually exceeded my expectations)

and then the first movie of two

And L is my hot, hot sex.

I am going to find this lanky asian

and make beautiful, smart, mocha babies with him

mmm Ken'ichi Matsuyama please move to Canada and speak french with me

none of you even want to know my weight

my grandma dissapeared and left me to take care of my little brother yesterday

and I am so angry at her but thanks to chatting about boys with Gabby, I didn't binge/purge all of my feelings

but somehow my weight still sucks,

oh well, fasting time tomorrow till Friday!

next week's Heavy stars a 250 pound midget

(IM EXCITED!)

I miss ms Nikki and am super excited to hear all the deets of her mini vacay

I should be a movie critic, I've watched, no joke, at least 50 hours of movies in 3 weeks

and have done zip homework.

oops, oh well!

ps-everybody check out Mother Mother's video "the stand", love it!

If I had a type then baby it would be you

Salut!

So I fasted (minus a small bowl of tom soup) for 2 days and lost 4 pounds!

now at 99+19.4 slight progress, but progress none the less

but I had copious amounts of spaghetti, a bit of cookie dough and cereal today,

I justified the cereal because I almost fainted before work

but that is no excuse

and the others I just binged

but I'm going to fast again until Monday

I'll eat on the days I work, but not crazy like I did today

and I am going to work out tomorrow morning

I'm having a good day aside from the binge

Went out last night, it wasn't perfect but I had fun and it made me miss my boyfriend,

I'm turning into such a sap, oh well, c'est la vie

Have a great weekend mes ami(e)s!

Quelle belle journée!

Salut mes chouettes!
Aujourd'hui, j'ai appliqué pour l'université!
J'ai hâte a voir si je serai acceptée!

....
I'm feeling very french today because i applied for university en français!
I'm quite excited because it means nobody making me eat and I never have to speak english in real life again!
WOOHOO
Last night I binged, I had some Munchies and some frog candies
but I woke up today half a pound lighter!
99+23.4
disgusting! I've gained 6 pounds in a couple months, this is gross
I am fixing it
looking at thinspo and binge prevention (yay PT)
I also got invited to go out tomorrow night with people at school
I am feeling good!!
Passez une merveilleuse nuit, je m'en vais au gym, puis je vais me bronzer!