Tis the season

Vacation in four days

weight still a going down

studying like mad for exams

so I will be MIA until the 26th at least

happy christmas/whatever you celebrate

here's to not being fat for the hols!

CJ

failure

Fasted for 3 days.

all by my lonesome, but whatever

I'm strong and I can do this

I can reach my goal.

We leave in 7 days

and I need to lose 8 pounds

it is doable.

absolutely. fast fast starve starve.

I deserve to be skinny

on another note

fuckyoufuckyoufuckfyou

you suck, im sick of your bullshit

if you wanted this bad enough, you would have smartened up

UGH

on yet another note

I can feel myself beginning to have a mental breakdown

but I will not go eat and puke to get rid of my feelings

i will go out with friends

and do homework and be healthy and use my dbt skills

CJ

In a world called ctastophe

I've been so MIA lately, mainly because I've been a fat fucking cow

I need to purge more and drop

I need to do a fuckload of drugs and wither away into nothingness

not buying groceries until we leave (except oatmeal and some more yogurt)

because I don't fucking deserve to eat.

Exams are coming up and I am procrastinating sooo badly.

I am going to clean my room today and do my dishes and write one essay.

And walk to the store

That way I'll burn mental calories and workout calories

trying to stay positive

CJ