Hello my name is CJ

I seem to be caring less and less about this bullshit

and I want to care more

but I am in such a great place in my life right now

that im like 'hey, ive got a bit, its not that bad'

who the fuck is this and where did my brain go

I need to start mentally breaking down again, self sabotaging everything except school

so that I start caring about my legs

and my ass

and the fat inside of my body

fuck I'm fucking pissed and I have no reason to be

So confused about all of this