and im not sure how i feel about it
I am pretty sure I am suffering a mild psychotic break
and my therapist isnt returning my calls
and my boyfriend is napping
and my teachers hate me
and I am fat
and nobody reads this blog anymore
i just feel really alone and confused
and there was a story in chicken soup for the teenage soul on love and freindship
that i havent read in a long time
about two girls and a broken friendship, and how i used to think that was us, that is could be mended
but I was wrong. and theres nothing special. theres no fairy tale ending for me
stuck in a halfway house
not strong enough to move forward
not weak enough to go back
im so confused and lonely and I just don't know about anything anymore
I can feel my brain slipping. I don't know what to do
and I'm scared.
scared i will do it, scared I won't, scared that plans will go too awry.
'When there's a trap set up for you
In every corner of this townAnd so you learn the only way to go is underground'
I'm sorry you're feeling so bad.
RépondreSupprimerI also have days when i cry over the past and feel like an utter failure because i still can't get over it, and i don't see any future for myself, then i feel lost and numb, which leads to self-harm, and then i cry myself to sleep. But there's always a new day. And it gives me hope.
Please, don't give up! One day everything will be alright.
Stay strong ♥